Let's speak truth

What I am about to talk about gets me so excited, so I honestly cannot wait to write this! This truth has fully turned my life around.

One of the biggest things I have had to overcome over the past few years is my mind. I am very hard on myself and everything I do has to be perfect or what's the point. This mentality has its benefits, but it clearly has its downfalls. I struggled for years with degrading thoughts towards myself, which then turned into external words I would speak, which then turned into the lowest self-esteem.

Honestly, for the longest time, I just embraced my thoughts and accepted them making jokes about myself being stupid, clumsy, and ugly. Let me tell you this, talking bad about yourself for a laugh isn't what's up. But this was just the way I lived.

Eventually, it got so bad that I was upsetting my mom with the amount of negativity that comes out of my mouth towards me. When she would correct me I would legit just roll my eyes and pretend like I understood what she was saying and would "try to change". I didn't realize the power my words had over me.

If you read my testimony you know that I went through a rough couple of years with my self-image and self-esteem, and it reached a point where something had to change.

Since moms let nothing slide and catch literally everything, my mom knew I wasn't fully grasping the concept of how my words affect my way of life. So one day as I was having a total breakdown, I began to go off about myself being "a terrible person." Like a total tangent. And in the moment I believed every single word I had just said.

Here's the thing the devil can be really good at what he does, he is the father of lies, and he does just that. The devil is not equal to God in power, the devil can only use the power we give him. So he whispers lies into our ears and it's our choice how to handle those words. For me, I was giving him more power than he ever deserves to have.

So here's the deal, when we have a negative thought about ourselves I 1000% guarantee you that it is not God speaking. When God points something out that is broken in you He does not do it in a way that will ever invoke shame, guilt, or bad feelings towards yourself. So if you feel any of those things when you have a negative thought about yourself, bruh it ain't the Lord. God is gentle and would never cause those feelings to arise in you.

However, it is the total opposite when it is satan talking. So it is our job to take our thoughts captive and decide what gets to live rent-free in our minds.

Here's another thing I have learned about satan. He cannot read our minds, like at all, he's not God. But what he can do, is hear what comes out of our mouths. This is why it is so important that we watch what we say about ourselves out loud. Because the devils gonna talk his talk and if we are saying out loud what he is telling us, we are letting him win. But when we get the thoughts he is trying to convince us of, we gotta stop it in our heads before we believe it in our hearts and externally speak it as truth.

So when I went on that tangent about myself, I 100% let satan win. I fully digested his lies so that I believed every one of them.

So, once again I talked with my mom and she gave me something, a piece of advice, a way to help fix this issue I was dealing with. I still do it to this day and it has fully changed everything for me!

She told me that when I have those negative thoughts about myself if I don't feel smart, I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel loved, I feel anxiety, I feel depression, and really just ANYTHING that is not from God. Go to a quiet room, and say OUT LOUD the opposite of what I am feeling.

For a while, I did this rolling my eyes. But the thing is, that I slowly started to think that way about myself, versus the way satan thinks about me. So pretty soon negative thoughts started to take a back seat in my life, and positive thoughts from God took its place.

Speaking the truth over myself became a habit for me, instead of speaking lies. And my confidence has gone up like crazy!

So, next time you have a thought that makes you doubt yourself, I want you to go find a quiet spot (or not) and say out loud the opposite of that negative thought. And watch things change. I promise they will.

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